Cancer, you’re not the boss of me…

In October 2012, I was told I had less than 2 months to live.
I had lost the use of both legs and one arm.
I chose life.
A year later, they found 9 brain tumors and gave me weeks.
I am currently NED (No Evidence of Disease).
But that could change at any time.
Stage IV cancer is a terminal diagnosis.
I am just trying to redefine what that means…

The photo in the top banner is very meaningful to me. I’m wearing a hat because I lost my hair. Chemo had reduced me to not wanting to fight anymore. I was ready to give up. My son’s spring break was coming up and I was determined we would have one last trip together, so we went to Panama and I got permission to skip two weeks of chemo. I felt alive again, remembering why I wanted to live. I made the decision that day on the beach that I was done with chemo. Tuck away some strength somewhere and, when you think, you can’t go on, pull it out and surprise yourself! BTW, this was March, 2013 and I have since traveled to Croatia, Cuba, Hawaii, and Vieques.

This blog chronicles my adventures after refusing to die just yet.
May it inspire you to look beyond the chemo chair, radiation table, or scan tube you may currently be in.
I’ve been there. If it wasn’t for my ability to envision a different reality, I would still be there.
I may be there again, sooner than I hope. But meanwhile, brothers and sisters… Let’s live until we die!

Here is a link to my story in Radical Remissions

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